Breakfast- 5 Haitian mangos
Lunch- 1 large Mexican papaya
Dinner- a salad: 5 small slice Navel oranges, 2 shredded carrots, 1/2 cup walnut halves, 1 tbs pine nuts; 1 slice Ms. Lillian's Carob Brownie Pie.
Yesterday, I was feeling a little down, emotionally under the weather, and just not comfortable in my skin. It was just normal ups and downs combined with feeling sad when my family that was visiting from NC and TX left to return home. As the day went on I was aware of wanting to eat, to stuff myself with whatever raw munchie food I could find. I had mangos, oranges, and papaya at home but I didn't want them. I wanted heavy comfort food, no matter how I might feel after eating it. I was able to find the willingness to settle for the most simple whole raw food that fell within my definition of raw comfort food. I didn't eat too much; I stopped when I began to feel full and I didn't go buy more.
Today I am wondering what would have happened if I had just eaten the mangos. What feelings would have come up and passed if I had eaten the papaya. Based on the way I feel when I eat raw foods with high fat content as a means of seeking comfort; I agree with Prof. Rozalind Graham. I've heard Prof. Graham speak of how fatty foods function as analgesics to our feelings. Her opinion corresponds to my experience.
Frequently, when we begin to make changes in the way we eat, uncomfortable feelings are triggered. We're beginning to let go of old and inefficient ways of comforting oursleves. This is why it's challenging for many people to go raw and stay raw. Our culture teaches us to turn to cooked food for comfort rather than experiencing our feelings and letting them pass. As raw foodists, it is important that we enjoy our delicious foods and develop new means other than cooked food to provide emotional comfort and social lubrication.
I'd like to find out for myself what would happen if I just didn't eat the the nuts or the raw cakes and pies in response to uncomfortable feelings. I'd rather save the treats for when I'm feeling terrific and can really enjoy them.